What I want to be when I grow up

In thinking about how I want my life to unfold, I realized that I am very torn. I all at once want to be carefree, traveling around the world, backpacking, doing mission work, making a difference, and at the same time I sometimes have urges to get married, settle down, be a stay-at-home mom and just be a homemaker. So really, when people ask me what I'm going to do next or what I want to do with my life, I don't know what to tell them. I have so many ideas, but they all seem so different...I hate growing up.